Being a human is crazy – all the emotions, feelings, thoughts…the analyzing, the overanalyzing, the wonder, the curiosity, the “what ifs”. I’m sitting on an airplane flying to San Francisco, and for some reason always get this itch to write when I’m on an airplane. Last time I sat down to fly to Chicago, I remember writing my parents to tell them that I love them, and if anything were to ever happen to me, to take care of my (now ex) girlfriend. I guess with me there’s something about flying…I am looking at faces, and people, and reactions – and I feel like I can feel people’s sorrow, sadness, darkness, happiness, light, beauty. I wonder about what caused it, and then I begin to look at myself. I was talking to my cousin (who I’m very close with last night) and she was saying that I am the most empathetic person she’s ever met {all b/c when I was on the phone with her the other day, and we hung up because I was with a mutual friend of ours who cares deeply about everyone in there life – she forgot to tell me to say “hello” for her, but I did it anyways, and she was going to call back, but already knew I would} That’s the type of person that I am. If I can say something to make another feel better I will. Whether or not it’s true, I don’t care – I just say whatever it is I need to so that person feels better. I enjoy making people feel better – call it a hobby/talent. We are an INTERESTING species! So many forms of life, but the only thing we seem to notice is ourselves and our pets. The rest is on television, or a computer screen. Myself – I spend the majority of my time around people and in nature. I love being outside, animals, human interaction (any living thing interaction) and I appreciate it deeply. I’m not sure how many people feel the same way, but I know there are a good amount of us based on the books, blogs, and poems I’ve read – and these people astound me. They’ve shaped my life greatly. I constantly preach these things, not because I think I am better than anyone, but because I know it works, from experience. People always take it that I’m judging them, or trying to “change them” but in reality I’m just trying to give pieces of my playbook to them so they too can enjoy the simple, beautiful, grounding, natural, FREE things that we have been taught to not enjoy. I LOVE deeply, and people tell me I need to stop. I will never stop loving deeply, or caring so much, or doing all the things that I do. I may spend more time now (as this is the first time in my life living alone – which is good for me, though not what I wanted {all things happen for a reason} – I know it’s good) working on myself, but I’ll never give up my passion for the world, everyone (and everything) living on it, and I’ll never stop caring about the people that are in my life – that’s just who I am. Accepting who we are is a big step, feeling confident (which is one of the greatest attributes any person can have, and not so easy) is another story, but we can all reach that place. I’ve felt that way in waves of my life – and my goal now is to feel that way again. I’m trying to push out the negative feelings and bad experiences, and remembering (as mentioned before) that “all things happen for a reason” This is a motto I’ve lived by for many years, and a way to make ALL situations better. It’s unhealthy to dwell on the past, and the “what if’s” – they’re only felt so deeply when they’re fresh, but we come to realize this if we begin to appreciate and value ourselves. I know that all things feel, and it’s probably crazy to be a bear, lion, dog, dolphin – life is a crazy thing! What is it even? Why are we here? We can hear things that strike a chord, or make us feel – but at the end of the day we’re not sure, and that’s one of the (MANY) exciting things about life. I don’t know grammar, spelling always – I don’t honestly know what a noun or a verb is (am I displexic?) but I love to write. I’ve always gotten a thrill and a joy out of it, and it’s one of my goals to start back up. Facebook and social networking sites are cool, but I need to start a blog, and by the end of this trip in San Francisco, I’ll have one up and begin to tap into my ever-wandering, unable to shut off, wild and imagitive mind and see what I end up with at the end of the year. 2014 I turn 29 – I have big goals and dreams. Maybe if I spend some time working and taking care of myself I’ll make some of them happen. Right now, I’m pretty confident I can. Now I just hope I make it to San Francisco in one piece. Much Love Always, in belief – OneWorld1day
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